2009/03/28

Im BAKKKKK!

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I Know, I Know, I Know...It has been wayyy too long since my last post, for one reason or another I just lost the motivation and/or the drive to Keep up. I was talKing to my brilliant aunt/mother/mentor/therapist and she helped me realize that i beKame disintersted in the blog when i did not get the hits and the response that i was looKing for. So then i asKed myself...i said "Self...who am i writing for? Is it for me of them?" I realized that this Blog is for me...so fuKK yall (except you auntie/mother/mentor/therapist)! Now that I am baKK, I want to first extend a belated Kongrats to our Kommander-in-Chief President Barack Hussein Obama for single handedly burying all excuses for blaKK men and women, and providing a tangible reality for our children. I would liKe to also thanK those people out there who hit me up on facebooK and myspace everyday asKing why stopped blogging and how they looKed foward to my posts. Im glad that my biased rhetoric is even being observed let alone enjoyed. I would like to enKourage the few people who do read to aggressively challenge my opinions and Korrect me whenever they feel the need to. you can shoot me an email at Jholloman3@gmail.com or hit me up on myspace @ Hollywood NUPE or on FB, your Korrespondence is greatly enKouraged and im looKing foward to hearing from anybody who give a FUKK. Peace!

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2008/03/11

Regrets

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Regrets....Those who Know me, Know i am not just a Jay-z "fan" i am a Jay-z ambassador! And on his first album in 1996, Reasonable Doubt, (a timeless KlassiK), he said "the number one rule for your set/in order to survive, you gotta learn to live to live with regrets../Time waits for no man/cant turn back the hands once its too late/you gotta learn to live with 'em..." We live in a world of binary thoughts...left right, up down, yes no, on off. Therefore, its very easy to maKe the wrong decision in some situations, especially dealing with the external stressors that each one of us is subjected to on a daily basis, becKause in reality you Kan't split the forK in the road. I feel that how an individual handles maKing the "wrong" choice Kan really define an individual. That's where regrets come in, now everybody at one point or another has done something that they either wish they had not done or that they had done differently, but its the fixation on that event that separates the people who move forward and the people who move baKKwards, or as i call it "progressors-vs-regressors". Lets start with the progressors, progressors are generally mentally tough individuals, who learn from their mistaKes rather then dwell on them, progressors make lemonade out of their lemons and then plant the seeds to make more lemons. Progressors are Known to make the best of a bad or less then ideal situation. On the other hand, you have regressors...regressors routinely seeK sympathy for their mistaKes, as opposed to taKing responsibility for and owning up to them. Regressor make exKuses for their mistaKes instead of just admitting that they sKrewed up. Regressors make bad situations worse by constantly reliving them and not just letting them go. To the regressors defense, it is hard to let certain things go especially when they affeKt other people, and even more so the people we care about. I have no rule nor remedy to how to stop regressing and become progressive, because I battle with my own regressive tendencies, but what helps me is my Konfidence, not only in myself but in the way i was raised and the people who raised me, i have watched a lot of people close to me deal with so many different things, and i taKe from them the things that they see appliKable. I have only one real regret in my life, and I carry that regret with me everywhere I go as a reminder not to maKe the same mistaKe again.

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2008/02/16

Book Klub

The House That Race Built

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Yea so...im reading this book right? And before i even get into to what this book is about, I think i am going to make literary recommendations a permanent part of my blog...maybe a once a month mini "book chat". not only would it hopefully provide some press for the book and the author, no I dont receive a profit, but it will probably provide incentive for me to read more then i already do, and maybe get the people who come across my postings to read more as well. But
yeah, anyway...I just started reading the book, its called "The House That Race Built", its comprised of a bunch of essays by prominent African-American scholars, such as the infamous Cornel West (more about him in another post), the great Angela Y. Davis, the compelling Toni Morrison and a sister by the name of Wahneema Lubiano, the Professor from Duke University
who molded the individual ideologies into one elaborate sculpture. The "house" that the title of the book is alluding to is a metaphor describing how we live in a world where race, racial matters and racial derivatives has been its foundation, and frame.So far the conflict in the first chapter, Toni Morrison's chapter, is how to convert a racist "house" into a non-racist, yet race specific "home", and if even we would really want that, because even with all the renovations and redecorating you can possibly do to give this "house" the feeling of a home, would you really want to get comfortable in a "house" where its foundation still supports what you've worked so hard to mask and alleviate? Prof. Lubiano and sister Morrison both allude to that fact to it would almost be science-fiction to try an imagine living an a place that is "race free". Race has been so deeply ingrained in our community and even our language, that race has been able to give Poverty and crime a face...a black face. People take language and try and manipulate it and decorate it to try and denounce race as individual ignorance, and inexcusable execptions in society. Toni Morrison suggests that if we must live in "The House That Race Built", instead of retreating to a corner in the "house", we should spread ourselves throughout the house, and
put as many windows & doors as we can in it. Like I said, I've only just begun to read this book, but its making its points loud and clear from the onset. I recommend this book, to people who are genuinely interested in purposed ideas of change for our people and our domicile by our people. The read is a little intimidating, these are world reknown scholars, you may have to read and reread a couple times but its totally worth it.

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2008/02/14

I LOVE HER!

Amy Winehouse Wins Grammy!

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I really really love "urban jazz's" Elvira, Amy Winehouse, her style is so unique, she sounds as if she should be sitting on a piano, singing at Ray's Boom-Boom Room in 1938, such a soulful, jazzy, effortless voice. Both of her albums are stellar, even though i probably enjoy "Back to Black" a little bit more. She has such a free spirit...almost like a hippie, especially since most of her album makes references to or is directly about smoking weed, and or sex..."Im not gonna meet your mother anytime/i just wanna grip ya body over mine..." is what she harmonizes in the song "Stronger Than Me" about the passive, weak and insecure guys she has dealt with. If You enjoy good, original music you will really enjoy Amy Winehouse's unorthodox approach, interesting accounts and British accent.

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2008/02/13

A Negro Nominee???

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Im really excited that we are even as close as we are to having our first black president, I hope he holds true to the ideologies that he has campaigned under. I hope that he doesn't allow himself to be manipulated and he remains strong, even though i doubt Mrs Obama will allow her husband's morals and judgement to be compromised. Also, I really hope he doesnt get assasinated!

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2008/02/12

Revolution!

When i was young, i was bombarded with the cliche that "you can do and be whatever you want", and being the boundless, and in retrospect, innocently naive child that i was, i believed it. I believed it because, in part it was and is still true...depending on what your life's aspirations are, and where your values lie. Growing up, i imagined myself becoming everything from a gynecologist, to a marine biologist, to a pilot...and granted those are great professions, and more than attainable, but as i matured, i realized that there are things that i valued slightly more than high paying and socially glamorized occupations. I've always heard people reference the infamous "glass ceiling" put on particular ethnic and economic groups, and up until now i haven't really been able to get a full and complete grasp on the derivative of such a social obstacle. For people who dont know, The "glass ceiling" refers to the idea that as you ascend up the ladder of "success", there is a translucent barriers that prevents you/us from getting to "the top", if thats what you so aspire to do. And i put words like 'success' and 'the top' in quotations because these are terms perpetuated by general society to have a ubiquitous, definative meaning as opposed to a objective and relative definition that is individual particular. For me, that widely spread hinderance may or may not affect my career aspirations, but one thing that it does definately affect, is something that i cannot put a value or a salary on and that is my ABSOLUTE freedom. The freedom to navigate through this world free of inequality, the freedom to have unlimited options, and the freedom to choose. The country we live in advertises itself as the land of the free, however, so many of us are dependant upon various crutches ingrained in the fabric of our communities, and in that sense, we are free, but only free to move within the fences of predetermined inevitability and false hopes. Once in awhile we get somebody who may look like us, may come from the places we come from and may say the things we want to hear to passify us, but for the most part they are just puppeteered figureheads, at no fault of their own, but sometimes to thier own ignorance, with no real power to directly affect what we endure and have been enduring for over four centuries. We have an abundance of laws and legislation put in place to establish a level playing field and the equal conditions for a fair pursuit of our inalienable rights to "life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness", however, it seems as if these establishments dont apply to the occupants of higher tax brackets. I can't fathom how less than 1% of the people on this planet control over 90% of the world's wealth. Which amounts to less than 10% of the remaining wealth available to 99% of the worlds population! The U.S's roughly 300million people make up 5% of the worlds 6billion inhabitants. Therefore, there are 5,994,000,000 people sharing less then 10% of the worlds remaining wealth! Its hard to see the equality in that, especially when the same coorporations and families that monopolized all mojor markets are the same people who run our governments and public offices. There is no reason why a country as powerful, prosperous and technologically advanced as the United States of America's educational system should be 21st in the world, slightly about Tonga, and far below Kazakhstan, nor why healthcare and medical expenses should be the number one cause of homelessness, or why even the countries that manufacture the drugs or have softer drug laws dont have a substance abuse problem as bad as the united states does. This is a game not designed for us to even have the slightest chance of winning, and the powers that be profit from the desparation of the hopeless. we are filtered the drugs and guns to keep us high and to kill ourselves, and the tools, or lack there of, like poor schools, and minimal recreation to dig our own graves just to be filled by, prisons and recruiting stations. This is why so many of our people see no way out, because even if we survive the drugs, and violence, the poor schooling doesnt give us the resources needed to succeed in the workforce, so we are forced to take minimum wage jobs, that barely pay us enough to survive, and not enough at all to save up and get out of these communities or send our children to better schools, so the cycle continues until the levee breaks and Katrina comes along and flushes us out. At this point theres is very little that we can do, because even with just officials, it seems as if nowadays everyone has a price. So what I call for is a revolution of epic purportions, we need to revamp, reinvent, renew and rennovate the american mindset, and attitude, and reaffirm ourselves with what this country was built around. Also, prioritize in accordance with the needs of the plenty not the few. we need federally regulated education, living wages, and healthcare, we need to not allow big business and big money to manipulate our leaders, crack down on coorporate monopolization, and stop giving tax breaks to the wealthy, and thats just a start...we need to learn to invest in ourselves, people in Japan save 20cents for every dollar that they earn, while Americans spend $1.10 for every dollar that we earn, and i attribute that directly to our reliance on the Credit System, high interest rates, high medical expences, and the fact that by the time the average american graduates from college, they are over $15,000 in debt, due to loans and other expensive educational costs. I dont have all the answers but i know we need a change, and i need the rest of my people to realize it as well. Peace

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Blogging?

Yea so...im new to the whole "blogging revolution", it never really hit me how conducive having a forum like this could be for my future aspirations (we'll get to that in another post). A little bit about myself, my name is Jamel, but recently i've been tagged with the name HollyWood, a metaphor exaggerating on how i live my life and go about daily business. i was born and raised in Brooklyn, NY (Go Giants!), and i come from a great home...the end, lol. I would like to thank two people in particular for exposing me to the blogging scene, first and My father, he had a blog before i did and he's in his mid-30's...yes i am 21! secondly my homegirl, a such a wonderful and positive young sistah, the lyrakal songstress herself, Crystal F. Anyway, Im excited about this whole thing, and i look foward to getting some good feedback from my edgy ideas, and sometime radical posting. Peace

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